Well I was going to say f@#ked it but that wouldn't be nice would it! Well week two is gone and there is no more weight lost. I am pissed at myself because I have let my emotional eating get the better of me - today was a shocker.
My little bub started daycare today as I am due back at work next Tuesday. I am totally crushed and an emotional wreak. I mean what sort of parent puts a six month old into daycare four days a week. Stupid mortgage, stupid job, stupid house - ok I guess I am angry too. I feel like a bad mother and I miss my little bubby girl so so much.
Tomorrow I need to start afresh. How do I do that when I feel like shit? The guilt is horrible.
And I'm going back to work next week just as heavy as when I left to go and have my baby. I feel like a stupid fat slob. Embarrassed and fat.
I am hoping that a good nights sleep will bring some clarity. I have also joined a new facebook group of lovely EB ladies who are all in the same weight loss boat.
Back to square one.
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