Being newly sleeved it is hard to know what you can and can't eat. In this initial phase it is a liquid diet - protein shakes, yogurts, soups and the like. My new stomach can only handle about 200mls at a time, so I eat slowly and try not to overdo it.
I am not hungry, not really at all. It is more a mental thing - you smell something and it smells yummy, I would love to taste it but I know eating it will hurt, and when I stop and think about it I am not actually hungry. Kinda strange really. I sometimes find myself standing at the fridge door - just looking in... I am not hungry so I guess it is habit and boredom.
I have spent some time thinking about my emotional needs on food. I think that they were greater than I actually dared to admit or even realised. Food and wine has been my emotional crutch for long while now. I haven't have anything to "drink" since being sleeved and it feels good.
I must keeping remembering to take my time - food and drink must be slow. I couple of times I really have totally forgotten and hence learnt the hard way. If I gulp a few mouthfuls of water or eat something that I shouldn't (like some of Abby's boiled egg this morning) then it hurts. The best way of describing it is like you have swallowed a dish sponge full of water.... you feel it slide down, then it hits my little tummy and ouch!!! the pain is intense. So it is all a learning phase. Slow and steady.
You make a really great case for why this is definately not 'an easy way out'. The emotional and habitual side of eating I think is by far the hardest part to overcome. I will be really interested to hear how you go on this part of your journey. And the pain sounds yeouchy!
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